nowhere else to turn
i didn't know who else to turn to, so i decided to turn to this blog. i feel like i have exhausted all of my outreach options as far as my few friends are concerned. i feel a sense of guilt when i share my thoughts with others - it's as if though in sharing i am causing more pain for others than liberation for myself. and at that point, i have realized, it's just not worth sharing anymore, even if it is to help me with my own misery. i don't know what it is, but especially lately, nothing makes any sense, and i can't seem to see the value of things, such as this life, my life, to be exact. i've only just recently, within the past couple of weeks, as a matter of fact, that i have realized that i am a creature, alive on this planet. it just hit me one evening as i was enjoying some ganja at a local beach. i am a creature. i was born on this planet and i will likely die on this planet. at 31 years of age, what do i have to show for my life? who have i been livi...